Disclaimer: don’t worry it’s a pun ! Although sometimes I do feel a little bit mad in like an eccentric way. Also I know the ending of this is a little bleak,trust me I’m OK.
TW: All the things! discrimination, ableism,sexism, sexual violence, depression
OK yes it’s 4:30 in the morning. But somebody asked me something that at the time I didn’t know how to answer and now I do. What do you want? They wanted me to be really specific and I am not sure I can do without sounding like a pie in the sky type of person . So that is what you’re going to get
So here we go! If I had magic wand and head everything I could while still being somewhat realistic would be like this:
Number one. When I move out I would like a chance to tell me a story without The constraints of a job title for threat of having my home taken away, yes I know they would never say this out right but if the government was playing most of your bills you would be concerned too. I’m talking like a one hour TV special interview like princess Diana. Not that I think highly of myself at all. I also want a stenographer to take it down so that it is Accesible for people who need to read it to get the information and of course it’s sign language interpreter. Descriptive video all that stuff.
Then I want to write a book about this chapter of my life so like age 20 to 30. I wanna dictated to an actual human because that’s the only way I can get it out properly.
I want to be able to talk about my experience as a survivor of sex I did not want without worrying that it will affect the outcome of the trial which still hasn’t happened over two years later! I want a person to be available to me at least sometimes you help me with stuff I don’t need to survive but that’s what I want to do. Like when I wake up I don’t wanna wait an hour to get out of bed! I want to wear make up! I want to be able to easily we able to grab stuff when I’m out sometimes . If I have an appointment and I can’t get the bus I don’t want to be screwed! I don’t want my career dictated by the freaking bus! I want a Camera that is accessible to me at all times that I can actually use on my own both for work and just for fun. I want an apology from the government for forcing me into the situation without actually saying the words. I want to live in a world that feels like it wants me to be here.
I x
Victoria Levack 